contemplating..

Read this: Why I wouldn't settle

I can actually relate to that article, except the 30s part because I'm only in my mid-20s. But when I think of it, 30 is not that far. Lately, I've been getting those annoying questions, like why don't I have a boyfriend? When am I getting married? blah blah blah... It gets annoying at times because I myself don't know the answers to these questions. I love being single, but I also miss the companionship, those late night calls, out of the town trips, sweet text messages, holding hands and of course, hugs and kisses. But those aren't good reasons to be with just anyone. There are plenty of guys out here, but not even a single one have that spark I am looking for. I want someone who connects with me, that when I look into his eyes, my insides feel like butter, slowly melting. So what do I really look for in a guy? I have an endless list of that -- sweet and extremely romantic, thoughtful, funny, understanding, loyal, trustworthy, patient and intelligent. But what I really want is just someone who will love me with all his heart, and be with me until the end of time. Someone whose love for me is never-ending, someone who will never give up on me. I want to be with someone who makes my heart beat fast every time I look at him, and even just by thinking of him. I want someone who gives me flowers for no reason at all. I want someone who loves to surprise me (with good things, of course). I want someone who is head over heels in love with me. Why? Because when I fall in love, I give it my all, the 100% of me. I want that someone to love me as much as I love him or maybe even more. I've been jaded a couple of times which made me a bit cynical. Right now, I definitely would require a courtship stage because I skipped on that before, I fell too fast and got my heart broken just as fast as I fell in love. I am more careful with my heart now. A friend of mine just asked me how can a guy prove his love for me? Am I easily courted? Or does a guy have to go through hell just to court me? My answer to him was: If a guy have to go through hell to court me, I believe I'm worth it and I believe I deserve it. But honestly, I have a soft heart. If a guy really knows me, then I believe he won't have a difficult time courting me. I have several weaknesses, and if a guy knows them, I am doomed into falling in love -- fast. I am still hopeful that one day I would meet that someone who will make my heart flutter and will make me feel like I'm walking on the clouds. Someone who will forever heal my many-times-broken heart. Someone who will give me heaven on earth. :)

"Do you know what happiness is? It is waking up in the middle of the night, shifting blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you.. You turn around and see him in his most innocent state.. You smile, kiss his face gently so as not to wake him.. You turn around and a grin forms on your face. Then, you feel an arm wrap around your waist and you know it doesn't get better than that.."