A Good Thing

Listening to: Nicole Scherzinger's Happily Never After

Isn't life so unpredictably funny but at the same time interestingly good?

I know all my past posts were so utterly depressing that they kind of suck the life out of anyone reading it. I admit I was bitter, which is definitely not a good thing. Some of the posts I had were really disgustingly hurtful and just plain awful. I wallowed on the hurt and self-pity for such a long time. It took me too long to really accept things with all my heart and soul, and to just totally let it go, that it affected me, terribly. But now, I can proudly say that I have finally let go. I have started living a new life, as I excitingly look forward to a new day.

I'm taking things slowly now, one day at a time, with no expectations. No more getting head over heels in love in an instant. No more fairy tales, no more prince charming. I'm just going to face the ultimate reality from now on. Just the plain reality, no more fantasies.


Listening to: Cascada's Everytime We Touch

When things seem to be too good to be true, I can't help but be skeptical. It is maybe because of what I've experienced before, somehow it changed me. But it's a good thing though, I finally grew up. Don't get me wrong, I still believe in destiny and all those romantic stuff. But now I am more careful. I don't let myself get carried away with all those wonderful emotions that curls your toes. I still love feeling them and savor them as much as I can but I don't dwell on them like I did before.

As I've written before, I don't know if I would be able to fall in love again because I believed it was just going to be him, for all my life. But now, I think I still can. We are born to love and feel love. Even though how many times we've been hurt, we would still be able to love if we allow ourselves to. There is one good thing when we get hurt, we learn, just like I did.