Missing you..

I've tried to be strong, to pretend as if I already forgotten you, to act as if I had moved on. I may have fooled everyone but not myself. I still think of you everyday. I'm missing you more and more each day. I may look okay but deep inside I'm not. I've tried to be strong for you and for me. You may think that I am living my life as normal as possible but I'm not, I try to though. It's hard living like this, when things remind me of you even those little things that are somewhat insignificant to others make me think of you. It's hard to love you when you're so far away. I can't even talk to you when I want to. There are so many things I want to do with you but no matter how much I want to I know I can't. These things make me long for you even more. And you know what, I'm still waiting for that day, the day you said you're coming here. The longer it takes, the more it seems to be an impossibility. But I still keep my fingers crossed for who knows it might come true. Sometimes you seem so far away, not just the physical you. Lately, it seems like you're moving farther and farther away from me. I can't seem to reach your heart and soul. It feels like you've closed your heart to me. It hurts to feel that I don't matter to you anymore, like you don't even care for me at all. This makes me miss you even more, to realize that you're slowly moving away from me. It scares the hell out of me. Maybe one day, you'll completely forget about me. It hurts yet I still continue to miss you. I still long for you every night as I lie awake thinking of you. I've never missed anyone as much I miss you. I never cared for someone as much I as I care for you. I know I still love you even when you're so far away. I long for your touch, your smile, your voice and your love. I wanted to touch you for so long, to see your face, to just sit and talk, to stare each other while holding hands.. There are so many things I want to do with you. If only you were here...