a breather...

We meet numerous people in our lives, but only a few stays with us until the end of time. I am lucky to have met wonderful people who until now remains to be a part of my life. Not all people have this blessing in life, and even when they have, they take it for granted. Not everyone knows how to appreciate what we commonly call as - friends. My friends are really my treasure, that's why I make it a point that I keep the friendship as long as I can.

*Thanks to all my friends, through my ups and downs, you were all there. Through all my happiness and sorrow, you were still by my side, urging me to go on.. the wind beneath my wings :)

I also lost a few friends down the road, which I really regret. But what I regret the most is losing someone who's close to my heart, one that I consider a very close friend of mine. He's been there through my lowest, he helped me through a lot. If I would enumerate what he had done for me, the list would be endless. That's how special he is to me. Someone who I considered, and still do to be one of my true friends. I don't know what happened, things just fell apart. Maybe I did something that he didn't like, maybe I took him for granted, I don't really know. I tried so hard to patch things up, to make amends, yet it seems they're not working. I really don't want our friendship to go astray. I treasure him too much to throw the wonderful friendship away.

It's funny how we realize something when it's too late. We realize what we did wrong, yet we can't do anything about it anymore because the damage was already done. Ironic huh? I think that's what this life is all about - irony. I just read a blog a friend of mine wrote (courtesy of you know who you are). It was about his realizations, regrets, and questions in life. This person once had a special place in my heart, yet he took me for granted. In his blog, basically, he wrote how he became how he is right now - a heartless bastard (he really didn't say those words but it's what i think he was describing). People make mistakes, after all we're only human. But these mistakes serve as our lessons in life, we should learn from them. It's one thing saying and believing it, but it's another thing to be really doing it. We can't actually learn from our mistakes if we keep on doing it over and over again, what's the point? How can we learn if we don't change our old ways. People change, some for the better, some for the worse. It's always our decision which way to go. When you really try so hard not be someone you don't want to be, I believe you won't be that someone IF you really try hard not to. I'll repeat what I just said earlier, it's one thing to just say and believe, but it's another thing when you actually do it. I just want to point out that maybe he got his priorities wrong, maybe he values the wrong things in life. But it's only me, it's only what I think, my opinion. When you do things to make your life better, your life will get better. But when you do things that are not valuable in life and when you value superficial things, well, your life will remain as it is, as superficial as it can be. There's no easy way out in everything, it takes a lot to go through something. You may stumble, you may fall, you might get hurt, you might feel pain, but that's what living is all about. It's through all of these, we appreciate more all the good things that comes to us. When you know how to appreciate things and people around you, it will come back, it's what we call - karma. "Don't do unto others what you don't want them to do unto you." Value those things that are important in life, things that will change your life for the better and value those people who genuinely care about you, for it is them who will be at your side when things are on its worst. Learn how to appreciate, for appreciation goes a long way.