grudges..

I am a smart girl, but when it comes to love I am so stupid. I don't know why, maybe because I always choose to see the good in other people, that most of the times, I just get hurt from believing. I thought he was different from all the others I met. I believed he was a true honest man. I believed him when he said that he never wanted to hurt me, and would never ever hurt me. I chose to believe his promises, the promises that I held on to for a long time now. I thought he was someone who would treat me differently, who would give me the respect that I deserve. But i guess I was wrong. He seems so different now, like he's not the person I knew and loved. I never thought he could do these things to me. All the while I thought he would be honest, that he would tell me what he feels and thinks, but now all I'm getting is the cold shoulder treatment. I never expected this from him. Maybe he was right all along, maybe I give him too much credit. I don't know why he's doing this to me. Maybe he had enough of me. When I think of all the things he said and promised, it's totally the opposite of what he's doing now. He said he would never forget me, and that one day we'll see each other again. But now, I feel he already forgotten me. I guess I tried too much, I already gave more than what is enough. Yeah, it hurts to be treated this way, when you feel that you are being treated the way you don't deserve. It sucks, especially when the one treating you that way is the same person you love with all your heart. I guess all that's left for me to do is to just stop trying and forget him. Even though that means letting go of the most wonderful thing in my life, closing that chapter of my life which I never wanted to end. Maybe my love is not enough for him. Maybe he wants something else, something more than I could ever give him. I don't really know, only he knows. I guess I would just have to take the hint and cut the rope that entwines us. I guess this is the end of the fairy tale story that we all took part of. The fairy tale story that we all hoped would have a happy ending, the dream that I hoped would come true. But this is the reality, not all stories end with a happy ending, not all dreams come true. Most of the time, it just leaves us with a broken heart, broken promises, a shattered dream and tears that would never seem to stop.