Tears...

It's not everyday that I meet someone like him. I am really blessed to have met him. I am thankful for the memories. But now, I would just have to embrace the memories as long as I can because it's the only thing I have. I have to convince myself that maybe he's not ever coming back. Even memories can sometimes hurt me. How far would I go?

Crying soothes the pain, it's therapeutic. When the rain falls, it's like heaven crying because after all the tears, there's always a rainbow ahead. No matter how hard I cry right now, I am sure that there's a smile waiting for me after all the tears. Dreams don't die, even if there's tears in my eyes. It will always be there as long as I keep my faith.

I am trying to understand yet sometimes there are things I just need to accept even though I don't understand them. I know that when the pain fades away, life goes on. Even though how deep I've been hurt, I know that it would be healed. But it takes time, healing is a long process and a painful one too. Many times in our lives we thought our dream had came true. There are times in our lives that we chose to hold on to a promise. But in reality, the more we hold on, the more we end up hurting ourselves, deeper and deeper.

You'll realize how much you love a person based on how much you are willing to sacrifice and understand. There's no doubt that I love him, with all my heart. I sacrificed a lot and even though I can't really understand what's happening, still I am trying to understand. But, how far could I go?

I believe that touching's not the only way to feel. There are so many ways to feel and you can really feel it when you truly love the person. Love surpasses everything, even the distance. If your love is true, you can still feel the person without even touching him. It's in the heart.

Many people say that he's lucky to have me and he doesn't even realize it, and that he's too dumb to realize what he's missing. What I am willing to do for him. How much I am willing to sacrifice, to give, to understand, to love without expecting anything in return. No matter how hurt I am or how much I seem to be taken for granted, I am still here hoping, trying and still holding on. Yet, how far could I go?

But for me, I am really lucky to have him. He taught me a lot of things, things I wouldn't have learned on my own. He taught me how it is to really love unselfishly. He showed me a different world. He gave me everything I could ever ask for. He loved me more than anybody had ever made me feel. There are so many things and reasons why I am lucky to have him. Even though my dream of spending an eternity with him seems to be more like just a dream as the day goes by, I am still lucky to have had the chance to spend a part of my life with him. Even for just a short period of time, we shared wonderful memories. But then again, things change. People change. Situations change. And I just have to learn to accept things as how it is and be thankful that once in my life, I have shared something special with someone who meant the whole world to me.